The way things became

I am so lucky to have found Chris. He is everything that I could have hoped for, and things have made that clearer as I look back and see how my life led to him. I examined the different choices I made along the way and realized that it was a part of the giant scheme that has become my life today. I have followed my heart in every step and some steps have been harder than others. I made choices to not continue in some relationships because "it just wasn't right" and some of those choices absolutely broke my heart. I went through lonely times, frustrated times, and fun times, all to bring me here. I truly didn't not think this would happen to me. I believed in love, I had seen it in so many ways, and still, because I had never really felt it for myself, I didn't believe that it would happen to me. I have loved people but something was alway off, something that I couldn't explain.
I'll say it now that from the first time I heard about Chris I felt different. I HAD NOT EVEN MET HIM YET!!! I had just heard about this guy that I would be set up with. When Roy was talking about him, I got nervous and excited. I can't explain in words but I knew something was special about him. Then it all was confirmed the day I met him in May. I tried to be as cool and calm as I could but as soon as he left the room I started jumping up and down in Meagan and Roy's living room. I know that Meagan thought I was nuts when I said that I loved him like two weeks later lol. I remember sending her a text and she responded, "Aw, well it might not be a good Idea to just straight up tell him that" I may be paraphrasing but it was to that effect. I knew that I loved him right from the get go, and I was holding back as much as humanly possible. I didn't want to scare him off! Come to find out now... He felt the exact same :) The summer went on and we stayed in contact even though I had to leave for 5 weeks for a pych rotation and as soon as I came back he left to Sweden for 2 weeks. I kept thinking how crazy I was for falling so hard for a guy that I hardly knew! When he came back from Sweden we talked and he opened up a little about how much he missed me while he was away. Inside my head: YAY YAY YAY!! I love you I love you I love you! Happy dance! What I actually said : "I missed you too...(smile and bat my eyes)" It makes me laugh how I down played it so much, but hey it worked right? After that he invited me home to meet his family and we made it official.
Ever since then It has been a dream. I love him so much! I am so thankful for every broken heart along the way because it was all so that I could be here, today, with him <3. The future is open and I am excited for what is to come. As of now I am in love with the most wonderful man on the PLANET! A big fat thank you to all those boys who have brought me to you baby! Only looking back has the road been worth it.
I love you so much Babyness, Thanks for being worth everything :)