All is well and I'm a spaz

life is back to cheery rainbows and smiles! I ended up with an overall 88% in Block one of Nursing. I was a little disappointed to lose my A but I had one test during October that pulled my grade way down. My teacher actually called me on Thursday, told me that I was a spaz and that I did great on my final:) I love my instructors! I don't know why I freaked out so much. It had to be hormonal...but I think I blame too many things on hormones. The sleep really helped as well as the three hour bath, that's right THREE hour bath!

Now I can't wait to get down to Mesa for the next week! I get to see my sissy:)

I have to give a little love to my sister Jana....

She is the absolute best sister. I can't believe how blessed I am to have my best friend be my sister. Really! I can hang out with her all the time and it never gets old.

She gets me. We're both crazy emotional and that's one of my favorite things.

She is possibly the only other person that can love me as much as my Mommy did.

She cares SO much and lets me know it all the time.

She's freakin hysterical! Lets face it, she is so funny with the perfect amount of corky.

She's beautiful. She knows how to dress and always has. We are pretty much the same size and I love to steal her cute clothes...and jewelry...and perfume...and hair decor. Tee Hee, Sorry bout that Sis! At least I usually give it back...right? And now I ask before I steal:)

I love you Sister, I see you soon!

Mwah!

I need Tums or a strong sedative!

Beware: Use of Harsh passive aggressive capital lettering, proceed with caution

Ok so today was the last and final..."final" of the semester. I thought that I had everything under control. I felt good about what I had studied and confident that everything would turn out great. Well now that it is all over and done with I am about to die because I don't know how I did! UGH!!! Alright so I began the test and within the first few questions the panic set in...Holy CRAP this is the hardest test I have taken so far. I kinda wanted to calmly put down my pencil, walk over to the wall and start banging my head against it. I tried to just let that thought slip away and I focused on only being positive. I needed positive vibes to get through this. Then about question 87 I cracked.......I"M GONNA FAIL! I swear on everything Every dang answer on Every dang question is the right one! But which one is the MOST right AAAAAAAA!!!!!! Shoot me now or NCLEX questions shall be the death of ME! Again I had to force myself to calm the heck down and finish the test, and for heaven sakes be POSITIVE JULIE!
I finished and looked over it a few times and then handed in my future. Honestly I have NO clue how I did...and that is freakin Terrifying! I have no way of finding out my score until tomorrow afternoon. I am such a wreck. WHy? I don't know. I know that there is nothing I can do, what is done is done.
RAWRRRRRRRRR!
That's it, I am taking a Tylenol PM and going to sleep, Yes sleep will be my coping mechanism.
and my Diagnosis is
Acute psychosis, related to Extreme test anxiety, As evidenced by: Screaming tantrum on the floor.
I'm OUT!