I has been too long since I have posted last. I was reassured by some that my blog actually is read so I shall keep posting.
What to say,
I think a lot about what I want to talk about on here, and then I get here and it all seems to leave me. I guess I will start with an update. Ryan and I broke up. He is an amazing guy, shy at times, fun to be with, caring, handsome, sassy, sarcastic, spiritual...I'm sure I could go on and on. Yet even with all these attributes I knew that he was not my husband. He was not "the one". This brings me to a common question, WHY!?! ugh. Why was it not there for us? Thankfully he felt the same and we are able to remain good friends. I guess the good thing is that I know I have not settled for just having anyone. That's the difference, I want my someone not just anyone. Knowing what you want, and having high standards sure makes it Ridiculously Freaking hard to get married!!! Also the lack of confidence I have in men and their ability to be stalwart presents a challenge. Why is it that they are so few and far between? And when you see them...they are already married or engaged:) Do I dare let myself hope that I will find a someone? Or is it easier to plan on it not happening and get pleasantly surprised if it does? "It always happens when you aren't looking for it" Seriously people? That's what you're going to tell me? lol. Ok I will not look at or pay any attention to the Giant Pink Elephant in the room, who happens to be breathing down my neck. Oh goodness.
I need to say something and it is not pretty... I have lost entirely too much faith in men.
Even so...I can't help but hope. Some sliver inside me hopes that I will find that someone. And I have hope that this someone will not make me suffer the same fate.
To my someone: Please....I Beg you...don't let me down
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He exists, I promise. You can trust him because Glen was "a man" not "all men." Men are God's creation. They are inherently good. We are meant to be together, for "it is not good for man to be alone." Contrary to what the news would like us to believe, those occurrences are not the norm. Find a man who honors his priesthood to the point where his actions are dictated by it, and you can move forward in confidence that your Heavenly Father has sent an INCREDIBLE blessing to your life, instead of a test. Your husband is not a test or trial, but a help-meet.
ReplyDeleteI love you Julie.
Sorry.. i re-read my last comment & part of it didn't make sense! haha that's what i get for typing on my phone... Anyway,
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you guys broke up! I'm glad that you aren't settling though. You are such an amazing daughter of God. You only deserve the best!!!
I know exactly what you mean about men. After all the divorces we have been surrounded by definitely makes it scary for marriage. I let fearful thoughts (Satan) overcome me & ruin my good relationship. It's sad how much Satan doesn't want marriages & things to work out. But I truely believe that if we stay close to Heavenly Father, he won't let us down. He has great blessings in store for us. We just have to be patient (so hard) & faithful.
It stinks never knowing what is going to happen & when we will get married. I hate ittttt but we won't be let down!!
Hope you are doing well!!!
♥ ya :)
Thanks for the love sister. I am officially at rock bottom but the bright side is that it can only go up from here! I have faith that your perfect match exists and you'll find him soon. I even have faith that I will find a really wonderful & HONEST man with good morals and a conscience this time! Love you babe! xoxo
ReplyDeleteThanks Kelly. I'm sorry- I truly am! I was confused at what was said thinking it was you. Glen had said you commented to him about Julie's post & reading I assumed wrong. I am sorry. Soooooooooooooooo sorry & thank you.
ReplyDeleteTo whoever put that on there I think it's SOOOOOOOOOOO COWARDLY to write things if you can't put your name on them to back them up. What a pathetic thing to do- especially when you have NO IDEA what the heck you're talking about! Fess up you coward! Grow up!
Oh Julie. I love you so much. I am sorry for all the drama. I know you will find your someone and he won't let you down. (And on a slightly sillier note... PINK ELEPHANT!) I love you so much best friend. You are a sister to me and I know that God has a plan for you and I have faith that His plan includes marriage to a good man who is probably out there like you just trying to live strong and keep the faith that out there somewhere you are waiting for him.
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